Building the Table

On starting small, holding space, and building a community where women learn to trust themselves again.

For the past few weeks, I’ve been preparing to host a small dinner gathering for women here in Lisbon.

It’s called At The Dinner Table.
It’s simple.
It’s intimate.
It’s not a workshop in the traditional sense.

And if I’m honest, I’ve been moving between two very different internal states as I build it.

On one side: ego.
On the other: something quieter, more grounded.

The ego side says:
You need 20 women there.
If the room isn’t full, what does that say?
Other people are filling rooms. Why not you?

The quieter side says:
You’re building a space where women feel more connected to themselves than when they arrived.
Five women around a table can be enough to begin something real.
Depth builds slower than noise, but it lasts longer.

Both voices are present.
Both are honest.

The kind of space I’m building

For a long time I thought my work would look like coaching or teaching in the traditional sense.
But over the past year, something has shifted.

I’m less interested in telling women what to do.
More interested in creating spaces where they can hear themselves again.

Spaces where:

• we slow down enough to notice

• we reconnect with our bodies

• we talk in ways that feel real

• we leave knowing ourselves a little more

I keep coming back to this idea:

What if each gathering helped a woman know herself just 10% better?

Not a full transformation overnight.
Not a life overhaul.

Just:
10% more clarity
10% more groundedness
10% more trust in her own body

And then she comes back.
And another 10% builds.
And another. And another…

Over time, that becomes self-trust.
And self-trust is hard to shake once it’s built.

The difference between information and knowing

There are many spaces right now that teach women about hormones, cycles, nervous systems, and health.

That information is important.
But information alone doesn’t always translate into self-trust.

You can know the theory and still feel disconnected from your own body.

What I’m interested in is the moment when a woman realizes:
I can actually feel what’s happening inside me.
I can trust my own rhythms.
I don’t need to outsource this knowing.

That kind of knowing can’t be downloaded in a lecture.
It has to be experienced.

So instead of building something that’s purely educational, I’m building spaces that are experiential.
Where conversation, reflection, and presence do as much work as any “teaching.”

Where Human Design and astrology come in

Over the past few months, I’ve also been deep into exploring my own Human Design and astrology and how that fits into the mix of how I want to show up in the world.

As a Manifestor in Human Design, I’m not here to maintain constant output.
I’m here to initiate things.
To start movements.
To create environments where something begins.

As someone with strong Gemini and Pisces placements, conversation and emotional atmosphere matter deeply to me.
I notice the energy in rooms.
I notice what’s unsaid.
I notice how people feel in their bodies.

So rather than forcing myself into a model that doesn’t fit like constantly posting or teaching or constant output, I’m leaning into what feels more natural:

Initiating gatherings.
Bringing people together.
Letting something real happen in the room.

The tension between expectation and reality

I won’t pretend I don’t have moments where I think:
What if no one comes?
What if I’m building this slowly while others grow quickly?

It’s easy to compare.
It’s easy to think success should look a certain way.

But I keep returning to this question:

What am I actually trying to build?

If I’m trying to build a space where women feel seen, grounded, and connected to themselves, then the number in the room matters less than the quality of what happens there.

A table of four or five women who leave feeling clearer and more connected is a strong beginning.
That’s how community forms.
How trust builds.
And how something grows organically.

Where this is going

Right now, I’m starting locally.
Small gatherings.
Dinners.
Conversations.

Over time, I can see this becoming:
a monthly series
a wider community
perhaps gatherings in other cities
perhaps a membership that supports the in-between moments

But for now, I’m focusing on the simplest version:

A table.
A meal.
A group of women.
A space to notice and reconnect.

That feels like enough.

An invitation

If you’re someone who’s been craving spaces that feel slower, more intentional, and more connected to the body, this is what I’m beginning to build.

You don’t need to know exactly what you’ll get from it.
You don’t need to have the right words for what you’re looking for.

Just a willingness to sit at the table and see what unfolds.

If you’d like to be part of this as it grows, you’re welcome to join me at the table.